Christmas Memorial

I don't feel Christmas this year,I felt Christmas blue.I know,Christmas will not be joyous and celebration in future.

I used to know him as a shy,polite and yet obedient guy.A boy that every parents craving for.

I still remember vividly the last words that we spooked,and the last body touch that we felt.But I never expect it to be the last sentence between us,anymore.

I bought him a mentos candy pack for Christmas,he had sweet tooth.But he 'left' without disclosing the gift.He will never know what I've bought for him,anymore.When I handed him the gift,he was surprised and replied shyly "Thanks,but I didn't get anything for you" and I sincerely replied to him "It's ok,no big deal,next time then".I remember his hands were cold when I shake his hands.That was the last shake,a last goodbye shake.

Sometimes I wish he was here.I wish I got to know him more,I wish everything is only a dream,I wish I'm having self delusion.FUCK,i am NOT.

Christmas will not be the same.Christmas is not a celebration anymore.In fact,Christmas is a memorial.I swear that I'll never forget last year Christmas,the last Christmas dinner and the last goodbye from him before we left.I hate Christmas,I don't see the point why I should be celebrating Christmas.

Each time when I see his room,I felt his presence.I've been thinking that he only went to oversea for study where he supposed to.But when Christmas strikes,I know deep inside he is away,far far away.

Sometimes,life is unfair and partly its unpredictable.We will never know where is the next step bringing us.It could be somewhere as far as few thousands of daylight in life but just a few seconds to darkness.

And he was taken from us by the Lord to be with him in just a few minutes on 25-December 2005.




Miss you heaps,Rest In Peace...Keegan Lee Kit Weng .

The Way I Perceived Things

I tried to list down the reasons why I shouldn't be bias towards Penang,but despite unforsee circumstances, I still remained bias towards them.

1)The drivers and motorists are fucking driving me nuts,I think if I would to stay there longer,I rather commit suicide.You know what is it like for a KLian(fuck u,not KL Ah Lian),a lady driver who drives a SLK (Small Little Kelisa) with Selangor car plate?It's like trapping in a nightmare and longing to run away from it.Drivers with the big capital P on their car plate definetely won't tolerate or rather give way to drivers with the capital B or W.What's wrong with you drivers in Penang?Time is precious for you guys,rush for work or class,bla bla bla, but wait,rather do I.If for once,you drivers just slow down for another driver at the junction,periodically, the accidental statistics will decrease.Don't give me the lamest excuse in the world saying that 'Oh I can't see your car,its unnoticeable.I'll kick your small bro and reply," Eh, I didn't know that there is another family of yours over there,probably its too small for me to see and even feel it although he stood tall there",and for my goodness amitabha sake, STOP blasting your hons unnecessarily although its F.O.C.

2)Penangites are quite rude(or barbaric) sometimes.I don't claimed myself as a gorgeous person with sexy outfit and heavenly body,but occasionally I was insulted by passerby with either harassment remarks or wolf whistling.WTF.Showing off my shoulders doesn't add to any sex appeal as most girls in KL dressed like that too,therefore I don't see that there is any problem with that.What are the advantages and satisfaction you get by behaving in such manner?Your blardy small brother tends to get harder?You see,I prefered to live my life as a nun in Penang.

3)The food was exaggerated.Rumour has it all saying that Penang deserve its food paradise status,OMG,this is so untrue.The most recent reviews found that the best prawn mee(a.k.a Hokkien Mee) and Assam Laksa are found in Kuala Lumpur.Rather than deserving its food paradise status,I would rather say it Penang hawkers are money sucking vampire status.Apparently,the foods in Gurney Drive are not CHEAP as what it claimed.Everything about Penang was drastically exaggerated by the medias.

4)Penangites are dishonest.They like to conceal the facts,the facts that is obvious to see.I understand that sometimes we humankind tend to conceal certain facts in life,facts that is unknown to others but it is rather hilarious for me to say that,they even concealed the facts that is known to practically every humankind on this entire planet.We humankind are not perfectionist,but I don't conceal the facts that is known to everyone in order to be one.Put it in another word,LIAR is the word.You would lied about the facts that is known to everyone, then what about unknown facts?How am I suppose to trust the true side in you?In my way of perceiving dishonest people, i ought to label them as LIAR, someone whom I will doubt about the percentage of truthfulness in them.

5)Penangites are proud of themselves.Ask any Penangites about what they think of Penang,they will arrogantly answer you, "Penang is the best place,I'll never leave this place" and bla bla bla.Wait,you Penangites I didn't say that Penang is bad or good,but the facts is that Penang is too congested and the varities are limited.It is okay for me to stay in Penang for holiday but not for good.I had enough of 3 years living in this place,I just want to get out from the trapped beneath the sea.



p/s:Please take not that I was referring to Penangites,not All Penangites (Alex Wong,so stop assuming that I hate you,Ha!).I can't simple conclude that all of them are like that although there is a vast difference between the beautiful sides of Penangites compared to the ugly sides.

I still have a few good Penangite friends that I swear,they made my days in Penang shine and glorified.You know who you are dude!!

Addiction to tattoo

There are certain things in life that we get addicted easily,just like how non-smokers get addicted to ciggie in just a fraction of seconds or how my mom is addicted to Nescafe.When someone gets addict to something,normally I'll just spontaneously label them as addict or drug addict because when someone get addict to something despite whether it is good or bad,I'll perceive it as something bad and must be something related to DRUG,Wtf.

Probably its because of my up-bringing system in my family.My parents taught me that when someone is addicted to something,it must be something related to DRUG.Although sometimes it may be irrelevant,but the point is there.Addiction is hard to kick off.

I don't remember myself addicted anything till when i was 13 years old.I was addicted to piercings.I started having two holes in each ear and latter 10 piercings in total by the age of 15.I never know how addictive it is till I started to visit the body piercer regularly.I was bound with rules and restrictions in secondary school,but students always have the best way to run away from it.

Latter,when dark brown colour hair dyed was discovered,I shifted my addiction to hair colour.Although my days were like illegal immigrants,but to overcome it,it is full of excitement.From there,I started to lose my virgin hair.

And then my hair dyed days were gone and back to piercings,a navel and nose piercing at the age of 17.I started my piercing because it was a trend back then when a friend of mine went to pierced her navel.She explained how painful it was and the painfulness was exaggerated.

And then when i think I had enough of piercings, I decided to indulged myself into another form of art, which is tattoo.I am never an artistic person,I suck in drawing but I find tattoo a very beautiful form of art.I had my first tattoo at the age of 19 and later another one at the age of 20.Although I think I had enough of tattoo,I would like to have another last last tattoo on my left ankle.


I've got it before I reached my 20's


For me, tattoo add to a girl sex appeal.They can look absolutely sexy with one or two tattoo,but too many tattoo's will spoill the look of the girl.The placing of the tattoo must be at the right place,not a revealing place.Just like when you watch porn,you rather see a girl in bikini or fully naked?.Same goes to tattoo,if you have it on your arm like the one Jolin Tsai has,it doesn't attracts me.In fact,the one Big S has at the back of the neck attracted me more.Those now you see,now you don't kinda feeling.


(Before Ms Suzee Midori tattoo session begin)

My holy and devoted Christian aunty came telling me that tattoo is against the law of God.Oh please aunty...Spare me another life,stop pestering and telling me about Christianity knowing that it is just waste of time.I only live my life once and I don't want to die without knowing what is it like to have a tattoo.

Just like ciggie,you might not like the first puff but once you start puffing,puffing is something that you get addicted to unconsciously.

Ms Suzee Midori asked me to accompany her for tattoo,her third tattoo in this year.You see I've told you,tattoo is addictive,you will always ask for more.Her tattoo session onlyl asted for one hour as I've tried my very best to entertained her to distract her attention.
(Ms. Suzee Midori moment of pain)



I always wanted another one last tattoo,will get it when I can't resist my obsession anymore.

Ancient Restaurant

How often you see cultural heritage restaurant in the middle of KL?I've been staying in KL for the past 22 years,but yet I didn't explore much.

And yet, one sunny afternoon,Mr Kevin was tempted to go all the way to KL just to proved it to me that the restaurant served the best Ayam Pong Teh in town. I expected at least not-so-old place when i passed by the row of shops.Not up to my expectations, the restaurant looks much more older than the surface.From the entrance right to the backyard,my god its so nostalgic.It's so nostalgic till I thought myself ended up in Hainan Island(althought I haven't been there before) where pictures of their great grandfather was used as decorations.

My parents used to tell me that during their time, everyone love to sits around in the restaurant and spend their past time by chit chatting,therefore you feel the warmth feeling surrounding you.This is what I felt.I guessed its the lightning,60's Chinese music and ambiance that make me felt so.Put Kelly Clarkson in the picture,surely potong steam,wtf.


(Looks like Ghee Hin and Hai San generation)

You know sometimes, you don't need a 5-star candlelight dinner to make your partner romantically aroused,perhaps a 3-star candlelight will do the job best.Usually,when we go for 5-star candlelight,what we expect is their food,service and most importantly the ambiance,and this cultural restaurant definitely fulfill the above requirements.It costs you little but guaranteed 'satisfactions' in return.


(The real kopitiam place)

Probably I am weird,I dislike those 5-star kinda place.It's just not me for sitting down innocently with the girl-like-me-hard-to-find-dress,holding back my vigorous laughter and end up paying like a bomb.I understand that it is a different kind of thing,but I rather pay for something which give me full satisfaction.

This restaurant is called Old China.Based on the name itself,it already says what the whole restaurant is all about,the Old China. Bring your grandpa over there,I bet he will start talking about the ancient China and China tales such as like why he had 4 wives.Ha...probably the big capital C doesn't exist in China because the country doesn't produced latex. What about Kotex?Where the women drained their monthly waste lar?


(Old China in modern city)



There are a few MUST TRY food,such as;

TADAH!!!


Ranking: First (Bubur Cha Cha)
This mouthwatering dessert is something that I shout about.I've never tasted bubur cha cha as good as this in my life.Unlike those where it tastes like sugar water with raw sweet potatoes.One is never enough I tell you,you will ask for more.

(Can someone please tell me why is it called Bubur Cha Cha?)

Ranking: Second (Pong Teh Chicken)
Malaccans might have long tasted it before me.

(Sorry guys,these few chunks of chicken doesn't know how to glow in dark)

Ranking:Third (Sambal Petai)
Some people might think that this is an exotic food,but I beg to differ.



(My mom's all time favourite)



Ranking:Fouth (Sambal Kang Kong)

(Ordinary Sambal Belacan Kang Kong)





How can possibly two ordinary size humankind able to finish this?Unless I starved myself for another pair of heels.The portioning is catered for 4 people, therefore our stomach doesn't have enough space to squeezed in another dessert.

After Jonker Walk at Malacca, I pester Mr.Kevin to bring me to Petaling Street in the next few days. You know how it feels when low bargain syndrome just happened to you constantly without knowing how to push the 'STOP' button. At time, bargain stuffs are much more valuable and attractive compare to the first class items.

I am a victim of everything.It's not surprising when i owned the same top or earrings but in different colour.It's all because I am quite indecisive sometimes,I rather not regret in future by having the items in twin.This holiday was spent in buying low bargain items because I am broke, that sometimes the beggar at Petaling Street is richer than I do.

I regret for not spending much time in Malacca last time especially in Jonker Walk,I decided to bugged Mr. Kevin to fulfill my wishes before I leave in the next 3 days.My next low bargain items is in Petaling Street.

Petaling Street is one of the local tourist spot especially for those who wants to owned an IT handbag but could not afford.This is the place where you see even nice smartly dressed people come to buy their IT bag.LV's were everywhere and all you have to do is just tell the seller what type of bags are you looking for. Rumours say that the fake handbag resemble 99.9% of the origin one. If you were to ask me to differentiate it, I couldn't tell out the different cause I am not one of the fan for this sort of "designer labels".

A handbag reflects how to society perceived and look at you.You might be staying in a low cost apartment driving only an old junk, but carrying an IT bag will definitely changed the way people look at you. According to the statistics that was carried out, we humankind tend to stereostaip another person based on the kind of bags that they carry.

No wonder, all these fake LV's market are emerging tremendously,just like mushrooms are popping out after the rain.It gives them a different kind of status,so called "upgrading system".For me, I would rather owe a real one or not owing one.If I am in the current status where owning an IT bag will upgrade my status, I rather not.Cause a bag doesn't mean and represent anything for me.I might have the latest IT bag,but my days were starved with only instant noodles and water or my parents have to work with every ounces left in their body just for all these IT bags.

Come back to Petaling Street,it has nothing to shout about anymore.Prolly I've been to Jonker Walk,therefore I kept on comparing them although I know both places sell different stuff.



You know, when it comes to Petaling Street,if you thought of buying that particular item,you better make sure you buy it after the seller had bargained for you,orelse you will hear humankind cursing you as far as a few stalls away.

Why Petaling Street?

After Jonker Walk at Malacca, I pester Mr.Kevin to bring me to Petaling Street in the next few days. You know how it feels when low bargain syndrome just happened to you constantly without knowing how to push the 'STOP' button. At time, bargain stuffs are much more valuable and attractive compare to the first class items.

I am a victim of everything.It's not surprising when you saw me owned the same top or earrings but in different colour.It's all because I am quite indecisive sometimes,I rather not regret in future by having the same item in pairs.This holiday was spent in buying low bargain items because I am broke, that even the beggars at Petaling Street is richer than me.

I regreted for not spending much time in Malacca last time especially in Jonker Walk,I decided to bugged Mr. Kevin to fulfill my wish before I leave in the next 3 days.My next low bargain items destination is located at Petaling Street.

(Why Petaling Street when it is located at the central of KL??Call la KL Street)

Petaling Street is one of the local tourist spot especially for those who wants to own an IT handbag but could not afford.This is the place where you see even nice smartly dressed people come to buy their IT bag.LV's were everywhere and all you have to do is just tell the seller what type of bags are you looking for. Rumours say that the fake handbag resemble 99.9% of the origin one. If you were to ask me to differentiate it, I couldn't tell out the different cause I am not one of the fan for this sort of "designer labels".

A handbag reflects how to society perceived and look at you.You might be staying in a low cost apartment driving only an old junk, but carrying an IT bag will definitely changed the way people look at you. According to the statistics that was carried out, we humankind tend to stereotype others based on the types of IT bags that they carry.

No wonder, all these fake LV's market are emerging tremendously,just like mushrooms are popping out after the rain.It gives them a different kind of status,so called "upgrading system".For me, I would rather own a real one or not owning one.If I am in the current status where owning an IT bag will upgrade my status, I beg to differ.Cause a bag doesn't mean and represent anything for me.I might have the latest IT bag,but my days were starved with only instant noodles and water or my parents have to work with every ounces left in their body just for all these IT bags.

Come back to Petaling Street,it has nothing to shout about anymore.Prolly I've been to Jonker Walk,therefore I kept on comparing them although I know both places sell different stuff.

(You name it,they have it)

You know, when it comes to Petaling Street,if you thought of buying that particular item,you better make sure you buy it after the seller had bargained for you,or else you will hear humankind cursing you as far as a few stalls away.


(Everyday is CNY for the hawkers)

As a local here,there is nothing to horrified of because they know we are not their 'water fish'.They only target at foreigners and tourists and patiently slaughter up to their throat.

Petaling Street was my favourite back in my Form 6 days. Me and my classmates used to have our weekend tuition at Kasturi Tuisyen Centre.What I miss is the Assam Laksa at Petaling Street but after tasted it again yesterday,there is nothing to brag about. In fact,the ambiance and environment is so different from the old school days.



(Yeah la,at least KL is not 'kedekut' with their Kembung fish compare to Penang Kek Lok Si Assam Laksa)


When people say that KL shops has better sense of fashion compare to others,please,I am here to tell you that not all places in KL has sense of taste and definitely Petaling Street is not the place-to-be unless you want yourself to look like a 'Koh Tai' singer. I wonder,who are these clothes targeted on?Petaling Street is located near Lorong Haji Taib, must be targeted at those humankind over there.If I ever caught anyone wearing this hilarious costumes on the street,I promise I will capture it and tell you buyer and retailer outside there how awful this costumes are.

(My god!!!Where is MeLL?)


(Fucking ugly sial,how can they ever possibly come out with this kinda stuff?You give it to ShinChan,he also doesn't want)

Once again, I've tried to bring back my old school days, just like this 'Air Mata Kucing'.It existed way before I know how to count with my fingers.As packaging is much more convenient and hygienic, those old metal chill bowls were buried 6 foot under the ground.

(Cat Eye Water)


(ChestNut)

The journey to Petaling Street left me with much despair.

The Days of Noah

Have you ever come across the story of Noah Ark?Or your parent's telling you about the consequences that you have to bear if you ignored God?Apparently, I know about Noah through other mediums such as books and documentary,since the mainstream media in Malaysia doesn't reveal much about it.I used to think that the story of Noah Ark is only fiction,nothing more than a bed time story.But till the recent years, people often telling me that the story of Noah Ark is written in the holy bible and then I decided to watch along the documentary film.


(Days Of Noah)

As what I've said, I thought Noah Ark is only another bed time story where there was this man named Noah who tried to to save humankind and animals from heavy flood. But sadly, Noah words fell to the deaf ears. He brought along his family and every animals in pairs into the ship.And soon, the heavy rain strikes the whole entire place and resulted in heavy flood.

This is what I knew about Noah. I didn't know that Noah is related to Christianity, and I didn't even know who is Noah besides an old man who tried to saved the humankind from flood until I watched this documentary.You see, this is the consequences of second hand information's. The story that I've read didn't relate nor mentioned anything about Christianity.The bible claimed that humankind at that time were against God's word and sinned against Him.Therefore,I feel that the story of Noah is quite controversial.

(With the artifacts found,how can they simply assumed that it belongs to Noah Ark? I found a piece of wood near my house,does it belongs to Noah?)


Rumours has it all that parts of the ship were found somewhere on the mountain,therefore researchers and archaeologists are keen about it. Artifacts and broken pieces of woods were found and they claimed and believed that Noah's ship is on Mount Ararat.The story begin when they tried to relate it to places like Japan,Australia,Egypt and China.

I was expected that this documentary has sufficient evidence to proved the existence of Noah. Based on the artifacts and words from people around Mount Ararat, the researchers made a hypothesis with their own experiments that the ship is covered with thick snow and located at the top on Mount Ararat. But still, I feel that the evidence was not sufficient enough to make that kinda statement.



I still don't believe in Noah's Ark until you can prove it to me with sufficient evidence. Don't have to tell me how ignorant I am in Christianity, cause me myself know about it since Day 1.