I used to know him as a shy,polite and yet obedient guy.A boy that every parents craving for.
I still remember vividly the last words that we spooked,and the last body touch that we felt.But I never expect it to be the last sentence between us,anymore.
I bought him a mentos candy pack for Christmas,he had sweet tooth.But he 'left' without disclosing the gift.He will never know what I've bought for him,anymore.When I handed him the gift,he was surprised and replied shyly "Thanks,but I didn't get anything for you" and I sincerely replied to him "It's ok,no big deal,next time then".I remember his hands were cold when I shake his hands.That was the last shake,a last goodbye shake.
Sometimes I wish he was here.I wish I got to know him more,I wish everything is only a dream,I wish I'm having self delusion.FUCK,i am NOT.
Christmas will not be the same.Christmas is not a celebration anymore.In fact,Christmas is a memorial.I swear that I'll never forget last year Christmas,the last Christmas dinner and the last goodbye from him before we left.I hate Christmas,I don't see the point why I should be celebrating Christmas.
Each time when I see his room,I felt his presence.I've been thinking that he only went to oversea for study where he supposed to.But when Christmas strikes,I know deep inside he is away,far far away.
Sometimes,life is unfair and partly its unpredictable.We will never know where is the next step bringing us.It could be somewhere as far as few thousands of daylight in life but just a few seconds to darkness.
And he was taken from us by the Lord to be with him in just a few minutes on 25-December 2005.
Miss you heaps,Rest In Peace...Keegan Lee Kit Weng .
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